“I Dunno.” My most used phrase. I’m at a point in my life where I should be living it up. There’s SO much to do and experience in the world. Yet, I’m a young adult who is stuck. I have peers from high school who have now graduated from college, gotten married, started careers, and are now beginning a family. My past hopes and ambitions have all seemed to be crushed.
Maybe you’ve heard the catch phrase, “Failure to Launch.” Or the terms, Avoiders and Slackers. Ouch! This intentional labeling hurts.
With the bad economy and labor market so competitive, I want to give up before even trying. There are news articles everywhere that say that I’m not alone. But, boy, I sure feel alone.
I don’t know why I am so easily overwhelmed. I have this feeling of immobilization that makes me doubt if I really can be independent, take risks, and be successful in an increasingly competitive society. The future truly does seem daunting and has brought on the very real sicknesses of depression and social anxiety.
Meaningful adults try to be helpful be asking for my help with random jobs. All the while giving advice and suggestions for how to change.
The “career” I had wanted, (audio engineering) one, isn’t cheap, and two, it doesn’t seem like there’s a big “market” for it. No school is cheap, and my parents, don’t seem supportive? I mean, the whole “follow your dream” is a legit thing, but they constantly bring up the availability of such jobs and if I can support myself or a family with that career. I can’t find anyone to help with a loan, either they can’t afford it, or don’t think I’ll finish the schooling. Then paying it back with a limited open job availability afterwards is scary. I don’t know what to do. I suffer from extreme anxiety and customer service is the only option where I’m at basically. Or there’s an entry level job… that requires years of experience prior to it. How does that even work?
I dunno… I’m tired and exhausted just thinking about it.