Social Anxiety Disorder
I’m not a very social person and do NOT like talking. Well, about most things. There’s some things I can talk about, but I feel like a nerd. Anyways, I suffer from a severe social anxiety disorder, with a big helping of depression. I’ve dealt with it a majority of my life without any complications (at least to my memory) but a few years ago… I just broke down. Things have just felt downhill… maybe I’ll save this for another blog post one day. Anyways, today was a new day. I made it to my church and attended at least the first part of it. The last few weeks, I’ve had a song stuck in the back of my head. And today I was listening and singing along. And cried. It’s not the first song I’ve had such a powerful experience with, and (hopefully) it won’t be the last:
Those who are not familiar, this is a song from the Disney animated film “The Hunchback of Notre Dame“. It’s known as “Out There”. It’s sung by the movies protagonist, Quasimodo, otherwise known as the movie’s title. Poor Quasi has been raised by his “master” (Frollo) and is taught the world is an evil place. And because of his looks the world will be especially cruel to him. Which in a sense (even now in modern times) is unfortunately true. Anyways for me, I interpret this song, not in the sense that I’m “deformed and ugly” (at least I hope not). But I hope for a day where I can go back to being “normal”, and enjoy life, like I used to. If you aren’t familiar with this movie, stop reading this blog and watch it!
Well, this is entirely new for me. I don’t know how this is going to turn out. This will also be my test run on attaching media stuff. Being a semi-big music lover (I say semi-big, because I’m “limited” to a few genres myself) and enjoying video games, that’s probably what most of my stuff here will be about.