Angels Among Us
I was blown away when I was taking care of my brother who was dying with cancer, by the angels who were willing to help. Two sisters in my church congregation called and asked if they could come sit with him. They volunteered their help if ever I got tired and needed some down time. Several people dropped by to visit with him and tell him they loved him. His home teacher asked if there was anything he could do. His boss drove 3 hours from Prescott to show her concern and support. A dental assistant from the dentist’s office who Berneil was a patient of, stopped by to visit with him. A family neighbor and former co-worker asked if they could rub his feet and give him a foot massage with essential oils. People went grocery shopping for me and wouldn’t accept reimbursement. They were all God-sends.
To be honest, if the roles were reversed, I could NOT be the one to do that for them. And I have felt so guilty about that. Why can’t I be amazing like other people?
As an introvert, it is soooo draining to be intimately involved in other people’s lives. Especially in intense situations where I feel compassion for the individual. I would just cry uncontrollably and make the situation worse. I am highly sensitive and feel things more deeply than others.
Butterflies And Inadvertently Giving Service
When I was going through chemotherapy for my cancer, a loving friend gave me a book entitled, Butterfly Effect: How Your Life Matters, by Andy Andrews. It is about butterflies and how their innocent flitting about affects the whole world. I quote from the book:
“A butterfly could clap its wings and set molecules of air in motion, which would move other molecules of air, in turn moving more molecules of air – eventually capable of starting a hurricane on the other side of the planet.
This principle has proven to be a force encompassing more than mere butterfly wings. Science has shown the butterfly effect to engage with the first movement of any form of matter – including people.“
Today I asked for a priesthood blessing to be able to get through my work day and accomplish everything that was required of me. I am experiencing un-diagnosed fatigue and exhaustion in general. And then, today I have to take on the added workload of another co-worker who is on vacation. Plus 2 out of 3 of the installers that I schedule work for, had vehicle troubles and I had to reschedule their days.
My husband said something in my blessing that brought tears to my eyes. He said that I was a service to others by my friendly contact with customers on a daily basis. And the work that I performed to bring in money to our family was a service to our family. Sometimes we are not aware of the service we give or the impact we have with the things we say.